Fain'd Yourself
Faina. 20. I'm kind of that girl that smiles at random people.
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Dear Diary, I have been sitting on the computer for hours, scrolling through Facebook and noticing how happy people seem to be in their photos. With every update on their lives, it seems like the world is revolving around me. I was left in 2015, to my own reflection when I get out of bed. If this is what loneliness feels like, then I won the Powerball. Why am I typing this out now? Because I am…
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I did the laundry 1000 times to wash out your scent. I thought Downy would do the trick. Little did I know that infatuation hid under the sleeve, I’m guilty of this, just look at the debris. I’m guilty of this inability to jump into new tides Fearful of going under yet again Here I thought I learned how to swim. Here I thought I learned how to live. Little did I know that infatuation tickled my…
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I see you, failure. You don’t even lurk in the shadows anymore. You’re walking among humans, presenting yourself as a dear friend. I see you, failure. And I respectfully welcome you into my humble abode. You can tear off the wallpaper only to find a cracked wall underneath. You can break the glass I used for the new year, You can microwave the fine china I keep in the boxes. You can…
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My hands glided across his chest as he breathed “yes” with heavy sighs pacing me. It was orchestrated, and the trusted metronome kept me focused. I will create music as I strum every nerve ending. It was a sensory overload – a crescendo crashing around the corner. I’ve memorized this routine, and I’m comfortable performing on this stage. Alice paused and rested her journal on her chest, left… -
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I have yet to embrace the company of my inner fears, Yet to envelop my thoughts, It hasn’t been my priority mail. I have not enjoyed solitude. I find myself under the covers wishing to be tucked in. I turn the pillow in the middle of the night to sleep on the dry side, because the other half absorbed every paranoid worry. “Everyone hates me and feels too bad to let me know.” Relax. “I will fail…
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Damien Rice – I Remember The Head and The Heart – Rivers and Roads
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It is nearly midnight. It is November 24, 2015. I am grateful for many things today: The bed I left this morning, for peacefully accepting my absence. The coffee I made this morning, for calming my nerves before a day of more social interactions. Professor Birnbaum’s morning enthusiasm for furthering my interest in marketing and for being a caring educator. Annusha, for being a close friend who I…
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There is a negative connotation associated with the word “criticism” as though we shifted from respectful, constructive discourse to ‘keyboard correctness’, a term that I now coin and use. Political correctness is synonymous with respectful discussion, and if someone speaks up against the language you use, they are not stifling your freedom of speech. Watch Kat Blaque to learn more about the…
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I stood in a blur of enigmas; energies jumped from every spot in a conference room fitting at least 200 people. Within my space, it felt like there wasn’t even enough space for my size 7 feet. I looked over at my friend who nervously stood near me and we shared a thought bubble: “Now what?” “Maintain eye contact.” I noticed one young charismatic man gliding through the room. He turned this career…
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-Write an overall album review of Purpose (Deluxe) by Justin Bieber. He matured quite a bit this year, and I realized the effect of popular bias. We all seemed to fall into two cliques: Beliebers or Haters. His song, “I’ll Show You” is a confident stride as Bieber walks between haters and lovers, leaving them behind in his dust. -Write shorter reviews for Master of None, since people seem to…
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I plead the fifth. It’s the fifth time I see you smile, and it’s the fifth time I fall hard. Ask me how I feel, I plead the fifth. It’s the fifth time your eyes glimmered, it’s the fifth time you laughed. It’s the fifth date, it’s my fifth life, like I keep returning to the same moment and like it loops in repeat.